be open to your happiness and sadness as they arise

last night I was chatting to a couple of friends about life and love - and somehow we got talking about these moments in life, where everything is just ticking over perfectly - there is no disturbance, no interference. generally you immediately get suspicious - think that a big disaster is just around the corner - anticipate it all blowing up in your face.

I guess it's kind of natural to think that because we are so conditioned to never quite trust life, always expect problems, obstacles and hardships to come to us - because if you just ride the wave of happiness the crash will be too hard, and don't be fooled - crash you will.

I have spent many years of my life living like that - missing out on the perfect moments in life because I was looking for the imperfections. and guess what - unless you jump without fear of hitting the ground, you will never know what it means to really fly.
not so long ago I finally, and for the first time in life, actively pushed off the cliff and jumped, arms spread out wide, smiling and flying like I've never flown before. it was the most intoxicating experience in my life so far; the best thing ever - and as soon as I decided to ride the wave, let go and fly high for a short while my life was simply perfect. and I mean perfect in the sense of everything lined up perfectly - it was like the perfect domino chain - each piece hit the next one and they all fell down in a perfect line. and for the first time I managed to not question any of it - rather, I just accepted it, said thanks and enjoyed it.

of course I crashed, hard. ouch. it was painful, it was intense, but guess what: it was totally worth the flight. I believe life is always perfectly balanced - so of course when you are intensely happy, you will also be intensely sad. but the principle of embracing whatever comes your way also works both ways. and so I learnt that if you let the pain wash over you, absorb you, possess you - if you give in to it - just as you should with the happiness - it is intense, but it goes away much quicker. resistance only drags it out and ends up making it more painful.

so I guess what I want to say is that you should not question your own happiness too much; you should definitely not be scared of falling and crashing - you'll miss the flight. rather, open your eyes, tell you fears to go fish, and enjoy the journey wherever it may take you.